is loving someone who’s happier without you. Knowing you gave your relationship everything you had, but it still wasn’t good enough to make them stay. That you let things get to this point. Constantly looking back and trying to find that one moment that changed everything for the worse. Thinking about how happy you used to be. That nothing you can say is going to make them stick around, even as you’re spilling your guts letting them know how much you love them. It’s awful.

I miss having friends.

I have no idea what the fuck to get my boyfriend for Christmas…